Forgetting ourselves to suit others

We so often dress ourselves in ill-fitting suits to please others. We twist ourselves in knots and become ‘pleaser pretzels’, trying to look and act like what we think others expect of us: our parents, our boss, our partners and even our friends and children. We distort ourselves, and forget our true selves, to fit a mould that someone else created for us.

I was inspired to write this post by a Tara Brach podcast and the fable of Zumbach’s suits (as told by Ram Dass). It’s a story of a highly respected village tailor, who creates custom-made suits from the finest fabric. One day a man, who has recently succeeded in business, goes to see the tailor, to be fitted for an expensive suit. When the man returns to try on, and pay for, the suit it doesn’t fit. One sleeve is much longer than the other. The tailor, who does not like backtalk from his customers, tells him, ‘Nonsense! It’s the way you are standing‘. He pushes the man’s shoulder hard until the sleeves appear even. But then the material bunches at the back and creates a bulge in the fabric. The man explains that his wife doesn’t like to see him in a suit that doesn’t fit well across the back. So, the tailor shoves the man’s head forward until the suit appears to fit. The man leaves the tailors confused, but pays for the suit in full.

Later that day, the same man, standing with shoulders hunched and his head strained forward, encounters someone who admires his fine suit. The stranger asks, ‘Who made your beautiful suit? Was it Zumbach?’. The man replies in surprise, ‘Yes, but how did you know?’. The stranger answers:

Only a tailor as brilliant as Zumbach could outfit a body as crippled as yours‘.

There was never anything wrong with the man’s body. He was perfect as he was, yet he had contorted and changed himself to please another.

When we are truly accepted for who we are, those who love us love us as we are and don’t try to change us. When we truly love ourselves, we love and accept every element of ourselves, even if it doesn’t appear to fit with society’s standards of ‘acceptable‘ or ‘normal‘. When we deny ourselves, we live in constant conflict between our true selves and the outside world.

Be yourself and expand into, and enjoy, the unique and special mould you were born with.